Christmas Socialization

This year, I've begun the process of confronting areas of my life where I know I still come up short. "I'm not good at socialization," I say. That isn't precise enough. I'm not good at socialization with large groups of people that I don't know. I found myself saying, "I should at least try."

Long Distance Flavor

I have a lot of friends that are too far off to visit often, and for a large portion of my life it was that way with family as well. I have had good and bad experiences trying to keep in touch with people in unique ways, but I want to start a running list of Flavor.

The Archives

I am establishing a new ongoing type of post--much like Recent Media Consumed--that logs lists of ideas I've had for future reference.

Tumblr Confessions: The Rest Of The Story

One of the things I initially intended to do on this blog was to explore each thing that bothered me about being on Tumblr, but that I had never said in public because I was too afraid. The more I think about it now, the less important it feels to me.

End-of-Saga Blues

This is it. The last chapter. I've been waiting for inspiration to hit me for this one because it's too important of a chapter to try to forge ahead without that critical sense of Flow. Now I'm two pages in and drumming up a steady stream of words.

Recent Media Consumed

Covers: Diving into Pratchett's Discworld series, The Laws of Human Nature, The Host, The Ocean at the end of the lane as well as a playthrough of Stray, thoughts on Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, and much more.

Learning To Be The Fool

I feel like I’m beginning to learn how to fail correctly. I’ve failed plenty of times before, but I don’t feel like I learned much from those times. I could only focus on how horrible it felt and how I had to keep myself from failing, even if that meant never trying again.

The Glorious Glitches of Skyrim

The glitches in this game are so funny it kills me, and I have to make a list of the best ones I've encountered.

Recent Media Consumed

Recent reads and watches, and a few thoughts on each.

Critical Thinking Gains

A moment to celebrate something that has not (and still does not) come easy to me: I just employed critical thinking in a conversation.

In My Weakness

In my weakness, His strength is made clear. Made obvious. A light to anyone who knew how unable to overcome you were.

Confessions of a Fanfic LIFER

Fanfic writers are born fanfic writers. Plain and simple. There is no other explanation for this carefully hand-written story that I came across the other day.

The Hero Stage

Some days I feel like a child, struggling to express feelings and concepts while only having basic words to work with. These days, every third sentence out of my mouth seems to start with, "Well, Jordan Peterson said..."

Poetry is not Penicillin

I don't know who said it first. I don't know who came up with the idea. I know who passed it on to me, and even from the first it disturbed me. I've fought with it since then, even as some vestige of it taints the enjoyment of my craft and plagues me with guilt.

To Change The Things I Can

There's a funny little aspect of self-hatred I noticed recently and I want to mull it over here. Most of the time, I am focused on how to deflect or negate or block out the horrible things the voice in my head shrieks. Only recently did I start to think, "But it's not entirely wrong."